Out with the High School Kids!

Well, since I'm going to be on my blog more, here's a new blog already! =) yay!!!

So today I had a pretty cool day today! Oh wait! before I forget, I'm not going to bore you guys by posting EVERYDAY... I'm just going to post the days where I do something cool. So back to the story...

I woke up today at 8:30am because it was FREAKING hot. I can't believe how hot it's getting now. Geez how soon I forget that the Cali sun burns so hot. So, after getting ready around 9:30-ish, I left my house to pick up my PAYCHECK at school. I am SO happy to get my paycheck finally! For those of you who don't know, my job pays me every month, but the good part is that it's NOT taxed!

So after doing all my errands, I go help Heidi and JayR and her dad pick up this treadmill at Big 5 by our house. We rented at U-Haul Van , and me, JayR and Heidi played this game where you had to balance in the van standing up. So it got too hot and we all decided to quit. We get the treadmill, drop it off at Heidi's house and I bounce hella quick because I had to run more errands with my sister.

Me and my Sister needed to get our passports renewed, so we had to go to the post office hella quick because I got her at 11:30, and the passport thing in the post office closed at 12. It ended up that it didn't matter because we needed an appointment anyways. So me and my sister ended up going to Costco so we can get pictures and so my sister can eat. I also bought a NINTENDO DS LITE!!! Best toy ever!!! So yeah, Auntie Ellen also called me and told me she needed me to pick her up and take her, little Zoe, and Austin to the store. After dropping everyone off, the BEST PART OF THE DAY STARTED........

And it all started right when i picked up ms. Diandra! =) After picking her up, we went to pick up Jake who really wasn't ready yet. So me and Diandra decided to play 2-Handed Thumb War, and of course I won! o well...next time Diandra!!! So Jake came out the house like he just got out of bed, and I started cracking up! After that we picked up Ryan, and decided to go to Pinoy Bistro for some KICK ASS FOOD!

Pinoy Bistro was fun... a lot of random laughter, and a LOT of myspacing! Diandra said she wanted some "BANG - US" and "PINK - A - BET".. hahaha.. funny and cute at the same time! =) She has this one face she does..and it always makes me want to pinch her cheeks!!! awwww =) so ANYWAYS...after some Calamari, Shrimp Fried Rice, Talapia, and a GRIP of soda, we decided to leave and go to the mall.

Cerritos mall... mmmm.. The place where you can see almost every person you know. Me and Jake decided to play a little game where we see who knows more people at the mall. I ended up winning 6-2 =) sorry Jake, seeing the same people more than twice doesn't count! LOL. Well Ryan and Diandra almost get kicked out of KB Toy Store, and me and Jake went hunting for a game I wanted. After a while, we ended up going to Toys R Us only to find out that the game wasn't there either... =( we FINALLY decided to go BOWLING!

Bowling was pretty fun, basically, I won =) but Jake didn't do too bad, Ryan surprised me and Jake, and Diandra.. did HELLA good for her first time! =) yeah uh..that's right I taught her too! we ended up playing 2 games, and Jake was pretty close the first time, but I slaughtered him the 2nd game! After Bowling, we decided to chill at Ryan's house!!!

So..we watched The Notebook, ,Diandra and Ryan were "fighting" for almost 30 minutes, Jake was scared of me jumping on him. and we all ate these scalloped potatoes! It was pretty chill actually since i was hella tired from me waking up so early this morning!

So that was my day! and I have a few things to say to my favorite High Schoolers

Ryan, I know the secret!! haahhaaha but I can't tell..but maybe Jake will tell you later? O well.. thanks for all the drinks at your house! we should all chill some more!

Jake, HAHAHA... you are always funny as hell. Today was no exception. I see that you practiced bowling! Sucker! I still beat you! but thanks for the Pinoy Bistro! Good idea..it was pretty good food! =p Man...isn't wat I told you confusing?!!? =/

Diandra, O gosh.. I can't stop loving you! hahaha.. you are such an awesome kid and your awesome-ness keeps growing every day! =) I'm sure you'll pass your test next time, just don't forget what you learned from your mistakes! =) O well, let's hang out more in the summer time!! YEAH UH!!! =)

all rights..I got traffic school early tomorrow..so I'm off! Laters!!!

It's Been A Long Time and A Long Year

So, I haven't really kept up with my blog like I said I would, but I think all that's going to change. I feel like I have a lot to say, and this blog might be a little too long, but hey! It's been a year since I have blogged!

I feel that I have changed a lot since my last post. I have learned new things, and have met new people. I don't even know where to start with my blog, but I think I'll go in order of importance from least to greatest.

What's least important in my life right now are girls. Honestlly, I know I'm always like "Oh! she's hot" or "I want to get with her", but right now, I don't think I can handle it. I mean, it would be awesome if a girlfriend just fell in my life right now, but it's not like I'm always looking. I made a lot of friends this year because I thought that's what I wanted. I thought having a girlfriend in my life would make me happy, but now I realize that I don't really need one because that's not a main priority in my life... there are other things to worry about then finding a girlfriend. Besides, being single, there's no pressure or guilt hanging out with different people all the time. I just want to live life right now, whatever happens, happens.

Barkada... Oh Barkada... Where would I be in college without Barkada. For those of you who don't know, Barkada is Cal Poly Pomona's Filipino club. I thank all of the wonderful people who I have met there and basically changed my life. Paulo, I think you were possibly my first friend in Barkada and I thank you for all the fun times. Ate Rhea, you are ALWAYS there for me, and for ALL your other ADINGS. From the bottom of my heart, I love you ate! Joy, you have taught me a lot about being a person, being a leader, and just living. Thank you very much for this, you have honestly changed how I think about life. Christine Joy, ever since I've first met you, from like the very first week, we've been through a lot! I will always cherish the memories, and most importantly...the POKES! Marco, I think you were the 2nd person I met in the API. Ever since me you and Paulo realized we had the same Black Automatic RSX. Geoff, haha... Best Buy for life! Even though most of the time we're not serious together, you were there for me! Jon Perry, you have also taught me a lot about being a leader and listening to everyone. You were there for me a lot too. Julian Pabicon... even if you did dislocate my shoulder, I still love you man! hahaha.. from nonosina to barkada! frikkin awesome..hope you're in my math class again! To everyone else, thank you for always being there for me. Barkada has opened my eyes to the real world, and without you guys I would still be lost with no place to go. You guys are honestly my 2nd family!

I feel I have something to say to this one person. She's such an awesome person, and I just wanted to say Thank you for the memories. I don't want to mention her name because I want to keep this private. But I wanted to tell her that I will never forget the memories we've had together. It didn't matter if we went out to eat, movies with her family, or just running errands. I was happy to be with her. No, she's not a girlfriend or an ex or anything, just a really awesome friend. I'm sorry for all that I've done, and hope that we can hang out and talk again. I really miss you.

To all the High School Kids that are GRADUATING!! First of all... CONGRATULATIONS to each and every one of you. I am truly proud of you guys never giving up and graduating high school. I have seen plenty of you guys grow up from immature freshmans, to more mature young adults. Hopefully all of you guys go to college, and pursue high goals. Just remember to never give up. NEVER give up on something you want so badly. I believe in EVER SINGLE ONE OF YOU, and I know you guys can survive. I know college has all those parties and other distractions, but PLEASE remember why you are in college. High School is NOTHING compared to college, and you'll soon see what I mean during your freshman year. There's a lot of stuff to do there, but as long as you keep your priorites straight, I'm sure all of you guys will do well. So good luck to the class of 2006, and hope that you ultimatly reach your goals.

To all the high school kids that think they're cool enough to hang out with me (haha jk!). Even though you guys are all younger, you taught me stuff to, so yeah. Thanks. You showed me that not evey high school kid is an immature, naive, kid that doesn't give a crap about life. A lot of you guys have grown up fast. Jake, first of all, Jake.. I consider you one of my gooood friends out of EVERYONE. Why? Because you are always there, and always willing to help. Oh yeah, you also offer me moldy chicken sandwhiches from Jack in the Box. LOL. but yeah.. Thanks very much Jake Pinawin! Diandra, I know I just met you a few months ago when we all played mini-golf, but you are such a fun and cute friend! I'm always here for you diandra, even if I have to pick you up in Fullerton at 10:30pm beacause you missed the bus! Bianca (aka Binky!) I remember the first time we IM'd each other... it was soooo emotional! lol...and look at you now, you are happy, and that's all I've ever wanted for you. =) You are always my angel! and if you don't remember me telling you that..then BOO to you! Stephanie Lee, haha whether it's randomly going to your house late at night just to say hi, or running into you at cabazon, you have always been there for me! Ever since Hawai'i you have been such an awesome friend. Nikki Venegas!!! what can I say.. I LOVE YOU GIRL!!! You are always there for me no matter what, and of course you can expect the same for me! Hopefully we get to hang out more yeah? Because obvsiously, I only see you once a year! o well! Kiss the kangaroo for me! =) All the other high school kids not mentioned, don't worry you guys are just as cool! Like I've said before, you guys taught me something about high school kids. Good luck with the rest of your high school life. And remember, enjoy it as much as possible... These are your last years as a carefree kid.

To my favorite SUPERS! *SUPER EDIT!!!* How Can I forget the GREAT SPIKE NUTZ!!! always there jst to be real, and always around to help. Thank you for all the help through all these times. i owe you sooo much. Without you or Heidi, I wouldn't be the fruit cake that I am today!! **END SUPER EDIT!!* Gian, damn fool, we've been through so much together, and I appreciate you always being there for me. You have been my best friend since high school, and I thank you for smacking me back to reality when I need it. We have a lot of fun together, but we also have our serious moments. I love you homie, and I know that's never going to change. Heidi Pacifico...since 3RD MOTHER EFF'IN GRADE YO! I can't believe that I've known someone that long. Heidi, I am truly blessed to have a best friend like you. Thank you so much for being there for me. To give me advice on women, or vent on how gay friends can be sometimes! Thanks so much Heidz. I heart you buddie!!!!

This year, the most important thing I have learned is to never give up. I wanted to give up so badly in school because I felt like I was always failing. However, I realized that you can't give up if you want to succeed. People always say that giving up is the cowards way out, and that you are seen as weak if you do. I decided that I am not a coward, and I'm not weak and decided to grind it out. And this quarter, my hardwork actually paid off. If you guys haven't known, I've had a hard time with calculus, and this quarter I worked extra hard and PASSED! This taught me that you can't be lazy at school. It might have worked in high school, but not in college. So that's why I'm telling a lot of kids right now to never give up if you want to succeed. It may be hard work now, but in the future, when you're making 6-figure paychecks, you'll see that it is all worth it. I also want to say to never regret anything you have done in the past. Everything happens for a reason whether it's to learn a lesson, or to smack you back to the real world. So, to all those who say that they've regreted things done in the past, try looking at those regrets and see if there's something to be learned, or even something you can teach others. In conclusion, I would have to say that I have learned to live life to the fullest. Just keep heading towards your goals, and one day you'll reach it, and it'll be the best feeling in the world!

Calvin Macaraeg

WOW...it's been a looong time... time for LOOONG BLOG

Hey all! It's been a long time since I've blogged, but I decided to today because there are a lot of things going on in my life..and I feel that this is probably the onlee way to vent my frustrations.



So I started a job finally!!! I started it in July, and it's a pretty cool job. I mean...being a security guard at Target is kinda boring since all I do is stand in the front watching people, but if you find things to do, it gets pretty cool. Especially when you get to handcuff people. o yeah... haha.. I get to carry around handcuffs.. how cool is that? HAHA..



I'm also start school soon! Mixed emotions about that. It's cool because I get to see old friends I met freshman year, kinda sad because I know imma get stressed over the homework, tests, finals, and all that good stuff, and I'm nervous because I'm probably going to meet new people that I never even seen before! Hopefully this school year will be better than last year, socially and academically. PLUS! I might get another job at schooL! so cross your fingers for that onE!



So, my car is crapping out on me. =( The transmission is slipping gears, I have no air conditioner, the head gasket is leaking, and I fear that the engine isn't going to last that long anyways. That sucks. Even if I don't really show it, I really like my BMW. It's VERY clean for being a 93, and it's fixed up stealth style. I don't know, right now I'm fixing up the sound system because I can always transfer that from car to car, and me and my dad are talking about dropping $1500-$2200 on the transmission. O well...we'll see what tomorrow brings.



Hmmm.. so what causes me to be so "emo" all the time? Most people I talk to think it's girls... but.. there's more to my "emo-ness" than just girls... For my emo talk on girls... see the next paragraph. Sadly, even though I don't like drama in my life, there are TONS of it. With my family, it's my own secret drama I created. My parents LOVE blaming things on me. Especially my mom. No matter what happens, it is always my fault. My sister would do something to piss her off, and she would take it out on BOTH of us even if I didn't do anything. When I'm right and my mom is wrong she'll bite my head off trying to make her look right anyways. I mean...I'm 18! Don't you think I should get credit for things that I say that is righT? whatever... there is another drama tho.. between groups of friends of mine. It's been going on for about a year... The people involved in this would know what I'm talking about. A lot of disagreement and miscommunication, but I believe everything will come out on Sunday. Hopefully our little meeting will be EFFECTIVE, and we can all heal...



LASTLY... I'm still having girl problems. I thought I met a new girl to be in a LOOONG relationship with, but I guess the prettier they are.. the more they hurt. =( I was with her for A WEEK! ONE WEEK! that's sad.. =( She was the one that told me that she "loved" me, she's the one that was interested in me first, she kissed me on the lips first, she told me that we was gon be together forever, and she told me I wasnt't wasting my time. I guess we can see what a load of crap that was. Since then, I've moved on, but it hurts to see her get into another relationship almost instantaneously after dumping me. It's cool though, I know that I deserve better. Recently I started talking to an old friend(girl) of mine. We've known each other for like 2-3 years... I used to like her A LOT...i guess i can't say USED..beacuase honestly.. i still do.. the problem is that she has a boyfriend, and it looks like they are doing GREAT. Don't get me wrong, I'm VERY happy for her.. since she is my friend above all. We've helped each other through a lot in the past.. a lot of good memories, tear-filled phone calls, bad memories, and I don't regret ANYTHING. I really miss her. And i really want to be with her... =/ There is this song...that talks about me and her....



I remember when you fell in love

I could not believe

That it was not with me



I sent a secret prayer up above

And put my heart away

So that you could be free



I know that if she reads this...she knows I'm talking about her... but I'm not afraid to tell her how I feel... I guess.. Onlee time will tell.



All right guys, I have work in 45 minutes! Comment my blog! LOL! I need hELP!!!! Thanks for everything guys... God Bless



CALViN

what shall i do??

hmmm.. no real entry today.. just leaving you guys wif some of my thoughts...

what really IS love? I mean.. we hear the "meaning" of love in all different things... church, media, friends, relatives... but what is the REAL meaning? I mean.. when it comes to relationships, "love is just a word unless its proven to you".. but then again, your bf/gf can be fronting to prove that he/she loves you.. so that phrase is boogus already. when it comes to church.. we all say that we love God, but then... we always end up sinning against him. I mean, I know that we aren't perfect.. and I know a LOT of people who dedicate themselves to Him, but what about all those "posers"? What happens to them? The people who live these so-called "double-lives"? You know what i'm talking about.. the people who are all "holy" in front of church friends.. but around other friends they'll be all gangster and sinful. The media shows us that love is all about having sex, just doing what your heart desires, but the church teaches us that we need to follow our minds as well. It's not confusing for me, since I believe in everything the church teaches... but my quarry is this..



I like this one gurl... and i've been liking her for a LOOOOONG time. I also have "courted" her like Robby and Em were talking about in their Relationships talk. I always talk to her parents, and her parents like me and we really talk and bond(?) i would say. Her sister is even kinda cool with me "liking" her too. SHe even knows I like her.. and shes cool with it.. but says she's not ready for a bf YET. I told her that it's cool.. nd I would wait for her until she's ready. I denno if she even likes me or not.. she's never really made it that clear.. but for now we are really good friends. We talk a lot.. and i try not to "suffocate" her and keep reminding her i like her and junk cuz i believe that it makes any girl think that you are a desperate fool. I do little things now nd then.. but she keeps reminding me that she's not looking for a bf.. but sometimes i can't help but to "spoil" her. I talk to one of her friends a lot ( i would consider this friend of hers a really close friend of mine), and she says that i'm doing all rite in getting her to notice me. But what I really want to know is if I should really keep on "trying"? Should I just give up on this girl? Or should I be persistent? Right now, the answer TO ME is that I should be persistent.. because I've tried to move on.. tried to git her outta my mind... but even when I try to think about other gurls.. it is only a temporary replacement. Everytime my mind starts to think about her. I think about a lot of different girls during the day.. but when i lay my head to sleep..she's the onlee one i think of.. i won't lie.. even wen i was wif my ex-gf.. thots of her have been running thru my mind... I don't know what to do... and i don't believe this is one dem stoopid crushes either.. I've prayed to God about it.. but i have not yet recieved my answer.. and I am patiently waiting..

Someone please help......

CALviN

*sigh* I'm Finally Back...

Hey EVERYONE!! i'm back from Hawai'i.. I guess you can say it's a bittersweet return because I want to be herre back with everyone, but I wish I could spend just a little bit more time on the islands... *sigh* I already miss it.. but i'm glad that i'm back herre kinda where I belong for now.

Hawai'i was fun... more specifically the island of O'ahu. Me and my family arrived there around 2-3pm Hawai'i time (around 4-5pm herre). After waiting for my dad to get the rental car, we went to our hotel with Auntie Alisi and Annmarie/Erica in the van with us. I was amazed at how close our hotel was to the beach, and was very pleased to see that a lot of things were walking distance from our hotel too. Gosh.. i still remember how there are like 50 ABC stores on the same street... BUT ANYWAYS... after unpacking and getting settled in, my family/the Chuas went out without me, but said they would come back to get me for dinner. To kill time, I decided to kick it in Alisa and Marina's room and be bored with them watching TV. Me and Marina tried to find clubs to go to that night in the yellow pages, but we started laffin uncontrolably for some weird reason *boredom*. So my family picked me up for dinner, and we decide to go to Ala Moana mall for shopping / eating. After eating, i decided to visit one of my friends from BPHS who moved to hawai'i. She was working at the mall.. so i stopped by at her starbucks and got some Java Chip Frappuchino to go! So after a LOOOOONG time shopping.. *bought tsinelas and a hat*, we decide that it's time to call it a night since NONOSiNA had a meeting at 10pm that night. BUT.. sadly when we got back to the hotel, it was only 7:30.. sOOO once again.. me and marina kicking it at the hotel!!! haha.. this time nofo was in the room too, and alisa left with freddy to go to some magic show for her bday. Since Nofo had to be at her hotel by 7:30, me and rina walked her back to kick it in her room! USHeR CONCeRT ON Tv FoR LiFE!!! haha.. too bad Nofo had like every single song as a ringtone!! ANYWAYS.. hMMm.. after that.. i helped rina and auntie rikki move hotels.. then went back to the old hotel room and kik'd it til 10. After the meeting, me, rina, rakkel, leolani, raelene, jackie, tenua, his bro, and frank walked around til like 1am watching tenua git into crazee stoopid situations *X TO THE Z XZIBIT!! YEAH YEAH!!*.

Sunday: After waking up around 7 or 8 to go to the swapmeet, we walk to McDonalds with Freddy's cuzzin Moreen. MMM.. MCDONALDS!!! SPAM, PORTUGUESSE SAUSAGE, EGGS, AND RiCE!!! ONLEE IN HAWAi'i BABY!!! ok... after breakfast...we went back to the hotel to get Grams to go to Aloha Stadium for the swapmeet! Then Marina called me to go to the swapmeet too, so we had to pick her up. My mom was driving and I was trying to give directions. To bad I ended up taking us on a tour of O'ahu and Grams got mad at me!! *o well.. wat else is new?* So after getting Marina finally, Moreen took over as navigator and we got to Aloha Stadium safely. After HOURS of shopping.. we FiNALLY LEAVE!!! YESSSSSSS... so now me, the girls, the lil boyz / tila, go to the beach finally!!! To sum it up... erica can't swim, marina is skurred of fish, and tila is a flipping idiot! =) haha!! When it got darker, we decided to go to the Banyon and hit it up in the jacuzzi for a lil bit! Then me and erica had to go cuz we had to go to dinner at some chinese restaraunt!! FOOK YUEN FOR LiFE!!! Dinner was fun.. we got free cake from the locals next to us cuz we sang happy birfday with them! =p After dinner, we had the meeting at 10, and soon after we all went to sleep.. everyone else except me had practice at 8am the nxt day.

Monday: AHHHH.. i woke up refreshed at 11am. Me and my mom decided to drop in at practice, but by the time we got there, it was already over!!! I got stuck with my mom and Auntie Alisi and Moreen and Freddy cuz erica and lauren went to the beach with sheila!! =( GoSH! i was sooooo bored!!! MAN!!! we were trying to find CoSTCo.. but the one we knew about closed down! so we got directions to the NEW one.. but Freddy and Moreen got us "lost" in ChiNATOWN!! SoOo.. since they wanted to eat dim sum.. we ate dim sum at some chinese restaraunt thurr! mMM SOOO GOOD.. made me SOOOOOOOOO FULL!!! After eating, we went back to the hotel because NONOSiNA was goin to PCC(Polynesian Cultural Center) and the bus leaves at 4:30!! So around 4, we head back down to the lobby so the buses can pick us up to go to PCC!! There were a total of 3 buses, and me, bobbie, christina, stephanie lee, her sister, kristel, and louie decide to take the 2nd bus! We had the best bus with the best bus driver, but Grams and Auntie Rikki were in the bus with us.. nd we got in hella trouble!!! man Kristel.. wasnt that a BIIIG lake??? LOL. PCC was tyte.. food delicious.. entertainment was... wait! we were the entertainment!!! LOLZ.. newaiz.. the bus ryde home was crazy like the way herre... after we got in trouble the first time..everyone kept quiet. Me and stephanie lee bonded and talked about too much stuff ::roger roger you get that? roger::. After the tiring meeting, everyone was too tired to do anything.. so bedtime was early....

Tuesday: OMGOSH!!! ONE MORE DAY TiL i LEAVE!!!! *tear* arghh watever!!! I was already having a good time.. so I wouldnt let that fact stop my fun! Tuesday was kind of a family day because we went to the Shrimp trucks around North Shore, Matsumoto's for shave ice, and then we picked up auntie alisi to go to costco. MAN! everything is HELLA cheap at costco!!! even the iPODS!!! man im jealous..shoulda bought my iPOD in hawai'i!! HAHA.. newaiz.. this day was kiNDA boring.. but if you're a tourist.. you shoulda rode with us.. =p SoO YEAh.. after costco.. i just got dropped off at the hotel and did nothing,..... being bored... just me and South Park.. *sigh* so much for ending my Hawai'i vacation with a bang...

Wednesday: *sigh* departure time 2pm... how sad... i woke up around 7am and got ready / packed. I went downstairs to where dress rehersal was to say bye to everyone. To those who came late.... SUCKERS!!! YU DiNT GiT NO GOODByE FROM ME!! HA! jk.. i was really sad tho.. i didnt git to say bye to eVeRYBODy.... so yeah.. me and my dad decide to stop by the swapmeet one more time to get last minute gifts for people.. and we ended up walking around the whole thing TWiCE just so i can find Chelsea's gift!!! So yeah.. went to the airport to check in... then ate dinner at the all filipino workers Burger King. It was rather boring.. sitting at gate 31 til 2pm.. but THEN.. an announcement.. "Flight 2 to Los Angeles.. your flight has been delayed 30 minutes" GREAT!!! GosH!!! o well.. at least I have my iPOD to keep me busy... well.... until "Flight 2 to Los Angeles, we found your plane, unfortunately it is at gate 27" GoSH!! iDiOTS!!! who loses something that big?!?!? ARGHHHHHHH!!! well.. 15 minutes after going to our new gate.. we start boarding... great.. i sit nxt to a baby.. well. at least the baby was cute / quiet. The flight was quite turbulaent.. but i didnt care cuz i was watching dodgeball and dude where's my car? on the portable DVD player... and i LOVED the in-flight movie.. THE iNCREDiBLES!! WOOT WOOT!! so yeah... after landing.. my lola was thurr wating for me at the baggage claim.. nd we git my luggage and go home... *sigh* skool sux!!!

WELL.. i have one final tomorrow.. so PLEASE PRAY THAT i DO WELL ON MY TRiG FiNAL!!! =( i really need it... *sigh* well.. im done with my rubios..nd now they think im loitering in front of their restaraunt just to use the internet.. WELL.. GOD BLESS!!!

CALViN

PS.. to the NONOSINA people.. heard about 2nd placing.. DNT TRiP!! keep ya'll ChiNS Up!!! just a necessary wake up call to show that people are stepping up!! LET'S SHOW THEM WHY NONOSiNA iS WORLD-KnOWN!! LETS SHOW THEM WHO ARE THE BESTEST!!! SAN JOSE '05 WATCh oUTz!!!!

POEm PART DEuX

this was after single-awareness day..aka V-day

Like Twista and Faith I’m still hopeful for today,

Even if things didn’t work out for me on Valentines Day.

Can’t you see it’s not that easy to get rid of me?

Your beauty and personality always inspires me

To write all this poetry,

Can’t you see that I think we make perfect harmony?

Why just can’t you see how your life touches me.

We go together like Alicia to her keys.

I just want to know why you won’t give me just one chance,

To show you the love, see how our hearts will dance.

I can give you the world or maybe just a little gift,

I love to see you smile, O how my soul lifts.

I can show you the world, or take you under the sea,

You can be the beauty, and of course I’ll be the beast!

You see what happened when I wished upon a star?

God sent you to put some stickers on my car.

Anyways… all this sounds pretty gay but it’s how I feel.

SO TOUGH! I like you like a fat kid loves cake.

Trust me I would know how it feels… haha… late!

Sigh.....

Poem PART oNE!!

this poem was written for a girl before single-awareness day...

There are many girls I can think about during the day,

But the only girl I think about before I lay my head to sleep is you.

You’re more beautiful than a rose, a smile brighter than sun rays,

But you don’t need anyone to tell you this because you know it’s all true.

Sure I can tell you pick up lines, try to sweet talk, or do something special,

But none of these would ever express how I feel for you.

Whenever I think of you, all I can hear are wedding bells,

But sadly this is tis a dream, and you know this is true.

I thought this would be a love poem, but I want to tell you how I feel,

And I feel like you need to know how I feel too.

I want you to know how much I like you, and I’m here to tell you I’m the real deal,

And if you give me the chance, you would know that I will stay true.

I will be here for you always and forever,

And forever I will love you til the end of time.

This poem means nothing to me, its just a way to express my words,

But truly, there is nothing in the world to say how much I like you…

to be continued...

AgHH!! SO MUCH WoRK TO DO FRiENDS!! =(

HEY ALL!! =) LEMME SEE... AGHHHHHH Now that I started this blog.. i GUESS i have to update this like.. ALMOST EVERYDAY!! *sigh* O WELLZ! Tis what I get!! LOL. ANYWAYS.. yesterday was Sunday, and I was pretty much POOPED out from the retreat and ASIA BUFFET on satruday!! I went to 12:15 mass at PiUS today.. and I stood in the back of the church like I usually do because I always get claustraphobic around people when I sit down in the pews(sp?). I saw Robby and Em and FiSH after mass, and I said sup to sum peepz in the PiNOY chOiR.. HMMM.. maybe we should start a youth/young adult FiL-aM CHoiR?? ANy SECONDS??? LOL. so yeah.. after that I went to NoNoSiNA because there was a potluck.. and I wanted to see a certain someone....... SO YEAH!!! LOLZ. MAN!!! I missed a lot of practice due to my diSLOcATeD SHOuLDER!!!!! =( o WeLL.. i GUESS ill go back to practice after HAWAii!! WOOT WOOT!! LEAViNG iN 5 DAyZ FOR HAWAII!!!! LOLZ.. BUT o MAN... THE WoRK i WiLL BE DOiNG BEFoRE i LEAVE foR SCHoOL.. i still have to contact all my teachers to tell them wassup, and ask one of them if I can do a make-up presentation because I do not want to make my group presentation bad because I will be competing... =( BUT YEAH!!! I HAVE TO DO SO MANY PAPERS!!!!!!! AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! I have to do.... 5 one-page papers, 1 five-page papers, 1 two-page paper, 1 four-page paper, and maybe some more.. ALL IN A WEEK!!!! *tears* o well.. Hopefully God will give me the strength to carry this heavy load!!! AGHHHH!!!! but iM OVERALL EXCiTED to GO TO THE iSLANDS!! (well.. technically.. its jus ONE of the islands.. BUT WHO CARRES!!) HAHA!!! GOOD LOOK TO ALL THE COMPETITORS IN HAWAII!!! =) I HOPE THAT ALL OF YOU DO GOOD!!!! IM SURE YOU WILL!!!! =) HAHA.. SORRY NiKKi..i WiLL NOT BE ABLE to MAKE YeR BiG SiGN THAT SEz "GOOD LuCK NiKKi...<3 CALViN" HAHAHAHA.. o well.. HAHAHA anways.. Wen i GO BaCK.. iLL BE PRaYiNG FOr ALL YEr SAFETy ND WAT NOT!!!!! =) WELL... i'M IN THE A.P.I.S.C. (Asian and Pacific Islander Student Center) right now..and I have tons of work to do (ie.. go on myspace, get breakfast) SO iM OuT LiKE THE FAT kID iN DODGEBaLL!!! (trust me.. they always go out first.. UNLESS YUR HUSKY!!! THEN YU FAST*ask me if yu dnt git this joke*) PAYCE!!

PRAYER REQUEST:
Please pray for me, my family, and everyone who is goin to Hawaii to compete. Please pray for our safety, competition, etc. ThanKS EVERYONE!!

GoD BLEsS!
CALViN

FiRST POST!! =)

YEAH!!!!!! IT'S MY FIRST BLOG ON BLOGGER!!!! =)

AgHH.. I am a "convert" from xanga.. LOL thanks to B. anne and FiSH!! What better way to start off my new life as a blogger than reflecting on today's morality retreat?!? =)

I woke up this morning really excited despite the fact that I went to sleep 3am due to online chatting / myspace. I really felt like today was going to be a really awesome day. How true this was my friends. =) After praying, setting up, etc., I was honestly surprised at the outcome of the participants for this retreat. Even though the morning warm-up songs did not wake up most of the participants, the first talk sure did. Robby and Em did their talk on Dating & Relationships. I felt that a lot of things they said touched many people in the audience. For me personally, I totally agreed with a lot of things that were said, especially what they said about "courtship". I practice this OG-style courtship, and even though people may not think it's a cool thing to do, it really is a good way to get to know the girl because the way that the parents act are usually how the girl would act too since the parents teach her everything they know. I really learned a lot about the church's teachings on dating and relationships. And somethings I practice in dating and relationships were really how the church saw them too. So I thought that it was cool that I was following the church without really knowing it.

Fred's talk on sexuality was in my opinion, something everyone had to hear. Especially things about being homosexual and staying pure. These are really important things that we must all educate ourselves about, and I also felt that it was important to include a lot of Bible quotes and Catechism quotes to prove to everyone that we are NOT making up anything in our talks (even though Rob and Em told them in their talk too). After Fred's talk, there seemed to be a lot of people going to the question box to ask questions about sexuality. A big chunk of questions were about homosexuality, and I feel that it was important for people to learn the difference betweeen being homosexual and acting upon those temptations.

One of the most powerful talks I have heard in my life came from Jaymee and her Abortion talk. This talk was truly awesome. She tackled a lot of popular "pro-choice" arguments that support abortion by using facts she has researched on her own.I know a lot of pr0-choice people, and I can finally debate back with them about why it IS WRONG AND UNMORAL(is that a word) to KILL A BABY THAT HASNT EVEN HAD THE CHANCE TO LIVE. One quote that touched me the most was when Jaymee said "At least infants can cry as a form of defense, but unborn infants don't even have that." OK.. so it wasn't quoted EXACTLLY..but you get the point. Her testimony about her real life experience brought tears to not only me, but many other people (guys included) too. It really felt that she touched EVERYONE in the room even if they did not show it. Her powerpoint presentation was an awesome one, presenting facts about abortion and showing beautiful pics of her beautiful children. During the group sharings, it felt like the group I was helping in was too shocked and too much in awe to talk.

My favorite talk of the day was truly B. anne's talk on Vocations. There was something about this talk... that made me totally understand everything she said, and a lot of what she went to. I was really touched when she started talking about breaking up with her boyfriend because of what God was calling her to do. Similary, I chose to leave my girlfriend due to other circumstances, and I understood how hard it was to leave the one you "love". But if you truly love that person, you would do whatever it would take to allow that person passage into heaven and happiness. B. anne's talk really made me think about MY calling. What was God calling me to do? Is he calling me to be married? Or maybe be a priest? Right now, I don't know but I believe that he is calling me to eventually be married. I truly believe I would make a good husband...but you know what.. Whatever God wants me to do... I am for it 110% for it is His will, and not mine.

I believe that all these talks were VERY touching and successful because of the personal testimonies of the speakers. It made us trust them more, and relate to them more. I do know the speakers for more than a year, but I felt that their testimonies made me feel closer to them because they shared with me, and others, their own experiences in life. I hope and I pray that everyone who participated in this retreat were touched and learned during all of these talks. I truly believe we need more of these retreats for the youth/young adult.

My prayer for today:

Lord Jesus, THANK YOU SO MUCH for today, and everyday of our lives. Thank you for allowing the participants of the retreat today to arrive here safely, and thank you for everyone's help. I pray Lord God that the participants of this retreat NOT ONLY take one step closer to You, but that they may also spread Your GOOD NEWS and TEACHINGS to their friends and their loved ones. Thank you Jesus... You truly are wonderful! Mama Mary, THANK YOU for being the perfect example of courage and trust in the Lord. May we all me courageous as you by giving our YES to the Lord to whatever he is CALLING us to do. May we also look to all the Saints especially the martyrs who have suffered and died because of what and WHo they believe in. Thank you SO much Lord God for everything...

In Your AWESOME NAME we pray..
AMEN!!


GOD BLESS!!
CALViN MACARAeG